The colour of my life

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2011-08-22T14:05:00.000+08:00

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2011-04-26T13:47:00.003+08:00

好久没来了！

今天，在学校上了一堂关于人体学的课程。在寻找答人体图案时，有些体会。
我的身体，就像照片里腐烂的尸体。当下的第一个念头。。。。

“有一天，我也会跟他一样身体器官慢慢腐烂。这样老，这样死去”
念死的概念越来越强。

现在，很随喜自己找到了上日下常老法师，我的善知识告诉我这个生命的道理。
不像班上里，还在吃喝玩乐，只为了成绩读书的年轻人很努力的吸收知识却不知道所学的道理已经以indirect的方式告诉我们生命的真相。并且要多多努力地去把自己的生命活到最有价值--惟有来上广论。

感恩佛陀。感恩一直在我身旁帮助我成长的善友们。感恩感恩。

很随喜自己选对了生物医药科学系。因为，这科系让我对我所学的菩提道次第广论里起了很大的影响。因为见证什么？见证了对生命的无常。所以我要趁健在的身体，好好的实践广论。并且把自己最亲的阿妈，和自己最要好的朋友带来学广论。

2011-01-15T12:11:00.002+08:00

Most of my friends notice that I would not go for expensive stuff and always rushing.

Let me just clarify the first point:
I would prefer to go for cheap deals because I was once a poor little girl. Living with only $1.50 for breakfast and lunch. Currently, even though I was studying in a tertiary institution, my daily allowance have only increased to $2.20 per day. Hence, I would need to save up to pamper myself once a month (perhaps a cup of caramel frap from starbuck:P)> In addition, whenever I go shopping or outing with friends, I wasn't given any allowance like my friends. I used my own money to spent on shoppings.

Moreover, given my family's current condition, I do not dare to ask for more.

Next: always rushing
I would always imagine myself and putting myself in a situation. Do I ever regret if I am going to die the next minute? I would regret on my actions. hence, I would make a point to complete the work I am supose to do and do it to the fullest. Thanks to Lamrim, because of this book, I know that I have to take good care of this precios life to make other's life a happier one.

2010-12-19T20:54:00.002+08:00

学法，要对这个道理有确定的认识。
虽然很CHIM, But I must persevere...从浅到深，跟着生命老师走，好好的决择。
因为世间上所有的智慧比不上我生命老师所教的。

我学习的违缘，沉和掉。但是今天，我知道要不间断地观三宝的merits and its advantages和无常苦.

2010-12-13T12:17:00.002+08:00

眼睛
詞：吳德福曲：李翰章編曲：黃康淇
主音：黃杏怡童聲：吳尚好，劉美詩

天上的星星媽媽的眼睛
一閃一閃亮晶晶照亮我的心

池塘的星星爸爸的眼睛
一波一波亮晶晶清洗我的心

天上的星星佛陀的眼睛
一閃一閃亮晶晶照亮我的心

池塘的星星佛陀的眼睛
一波一波亮晶晶清洗我的心

我自问，我不是一个好弟子。在心对竟时，学的法用不上。
起次，恶业烦恼不断的造。

我记得，有一回，班长说过，亲近善知识，依指法，才能证的无善菩提。
我做到了吗？ 2010年，我做到了吗？
很惭愧。有做但很少。反而，恶业比较多。

昨晚，有机会闻到净连法师开示死后的现实情况。
我很庆幸，现在还留着一个健在的法身慧命，免受地狱苦。
慧仪在这里，诚心惨悔自己不知不决犯的恶业。

记得如贵法师在忆师恩法会里说过。。。
“在痛苦也好要好好的祈求，在痛苦心要造善业，好好修行”
因为，日常法师说过，
“只要我不放弃学广论，法师会陪我走到成佛的目标”

福智真美^。^

2010-11-15T08:26:00.000+08:00

上師教誡
此時此刻
我們雖然相隔萬里
但心卻匯聚一處
這神聖偉大的法會
再度讓我們在同一時間
想一個人
唱同一首讚頌
流一樣的淚
那顆光輝慈悲的心
依然照耀我們
依然陪伴我們
就如同我們這樣憶念著他
十方諸佛, 如母憶子, 憐念眾生

請記得
認真學廣論
歡喜學廣論
堅持學廣論
這是師父最歡喜的事
我們是廣論大家庭
我想念你們

2010-10-14T20:53:00.002+08:00

Sem 2 day3.
Well, I have 2 Doctorate as my lecturers for physics and chemistry respectively. Their teaching were awesome. Though they like to ask their student many many questions. Nevertheless, I still like them as they were like a living encyclopedia as they can answer and convinced me fully.

Psss....

I have a friend. Her classmate carries the most jovial name---Teck soon.
Initially, I felt awkward and stunned. Deep in my heart, I thought that Teck soon really came back to me. I was so delighted. However, the image of the person which carries a similar name of my brother had shattered my hope onto hard ground.

I miss you brother.
I pray to buddha for those who cared for me to be in pink health.

2010-10-04T21:10:00.002+08:00

"Mummy, who is this uncle beside you? Why are you not wearing any clothes?... ..." Thomas was questioning his mother naively.

Thomas was a intelligent little boy. He had a large need for understanding. However, Thomas mother, Mary was having fun with her boyfriend at the master bedroom. Feeling insecure due to the presence of Thomas, Mary slapped his son in order to stop the pain of his questions over her action. After which, Thomas was being dragged towards the pest-infested cubicle which was located below the flock of staircase.

Thomas was trapped in the small dark room for the next seven days. He had been abused by his mother since he was three. He abhored to come to this dark room as he would not be given any food during the stay in the dark room. The matress on the cemented ground were filty as the sponge was being soaked with evaporated pee that Thomas had treated it as his restroom.

Mary had been ill treating her son as she felt that he was the one who have caused her former husband to be killed in the fatal accident. Hence, whenever she found herself angrier than a punished child, she would hurled profanities over at her son so as to cool her fuming mind.

Thomas had regained his freedom on the eve of Christmas day. He was out in the open field playing with snowballs. He had enjoyed these moment alot as he seldom had the chance to step out of the house. However, Thomas was not able to enjoy the moment longer as he could not withstand the howling wind. Eventually, Thomas fainted onto the icy ground. His skeletonal body was freezing cold as his worn off sweater was not able to keep him warm .

Lucy, a foster home volunteer, had spotted the freezing Thomas lying on the ground. She sent Thomas to the near by clinic immediately. To her dismay, Mary had found clustered of bruise beneath Thomas sweater. After she has found the origins of the bruise from Thomas, Lucy had decided to prosecute Mary for abusing her son using authorised parental power.

The news of Mary abusing her son have spread to the whole town. After months of court proceeding, Mary was sentensed to a year of imprisonment. At the same time, Thomas was being sent to a foster home where he would received councelling sessions from Lucy.

2010-10-03T18:03:00.001+08:00

The catalyst to grow up

Ingredients for the catalyst:

1)family members

2)situations (The more the merrier)

3)fissure in the family

4)incident happen (the more the merrier)

5)Time

6)YOU!

7)the brain

8)Mirrior

Method:

Place the piece of mirror infront of the family fissure

Observed and examine the depth of the fissure using the incident to gauge the measurement.

Include more incident to obtain a more accurate result.

Record the datas collected into the brain system.

Allow time to pass by to observed the changes together with family members

In the mean time, do not communicate with stranger.

Solve the problem yourselves.

Persever!!!! THE CATALYST IS ALMOST DONE.

After 15 years or so, the growing up stage decrease from the age of 21 to 16.

To test for it’s effectiveness, you can use this catalyst in various situations.

Conclusion

Successful rate: 99.9%

Unsuccessful rate:0.01%

Possible side effect

-introvert

-depression

-major breakdown

-flexible in handling situation

2010-10-03T17:45:00.002+08:00

Hui Yi is not happy.
Hui Yi is crestfallen.
Hui Yi doesn't like the idea of selling her house with a very convincing claims.

Hui Yi wants her family members to know about the issue.
Hui Yi dislike her mum.
Hui Yi dislike her dad being a tortoise to the whole situation.

Hui Yi wants her friend to know that she might be moving out of Jurong west to Serangoon soon.
Hui Yi wants her friend to know that she was being forced to go to that place.

This issue has been bodering her for a few months.
She was not allowed to speak to her family members about the matter.
WHY?!?!?!
WHY?!?!?!
WHY?!?!?!

Why do you want to sell the house now and not in 2001 when her brother needs money to fund his chemotheraphy?
WHY?!
Someone please advice me what to do?
Does the state law says anything regarding the rights for a child to voice their decision over these matter?

My tenant ask me to ACCEPT THE FACT.
However, the reasons given do not convince me.

Hui Yi needs help.
Oh BUDDHA! OH GOD! HELP ME!
GIVE ME A ANSWER.
I need a spectacles which takes me to the future.
I want to see the live after today.

HUI YI NEEDS HELP.

2010-09-02T21:16:00.004+08:00

It is the month of September again. Personally, I do not like the month of September as it is month that I would feel very lost deep in my heart.

I went back to KKH this morning with a pair of heavy legs. I wished and hoped that today would not arrived. For the surroundings of the children's tower would bring back many scenarios which I have seen when I was just a little girl.

I thought I have kept the image of past memories in a concealed glass bottle. I knew they were filled with sand, seawater, sunshine, pebbles as well as puddle of dry up tears 9 years ago.

I might have forgotten to install a lock there. This is because the minute I saw the hospital building, my eyes were glued onto the right side of the 'blue durian head'. I knew exactly which layer to look upon. My tears are starting to well behind the dark blue spectacles.

The overhead bridge on the other end remained the same as the version I saw 9 years ago. The buildings and the interior structure did not underwent any major plastic surgeries. The only exception was the food court which I presumed the owner has applied a new coat of paint on its surface.

As I was walking aimlessly around the lobby, the feeling of lost and pain were becoming stronger. I followed one of the staff nurse I saw at the lobby who I presumed that she should be working in the children's' tower based on her printed teddy bear apron.

"Miss, which level?" a Malay couple questioned.
"Level 7, thanks." I answered without thanking them.

I have counted a total of three stops in each level as the aluminum lift was on its way to level 7. I did not grumble on the way to level 7. On the other hand, my mind was so busy with many images that I might encounter the first thing the lift open its aluminum made door.

"level 7" the automated lift announced.

The first thing that has greeted me was a boy. He was not an ordinary boy. I knew from my heart that children that were warded in this level was due to cancer; or disease related to cancer. The boy who dressed in loosened white shirt with dark blue lining and dark blue pants smile at me. Although his head was bald and his left arm was poked with thousands of needles, he was flashing a mega watt smile to me. It really made my day. i could feel that my heart was dancing around in the lobby.

I couldn't believe my eyes. I SAW MY BROTHER. I SAW HIM IN A FLASH TOGETHER WITH MY MUM. I tried to get their attention. However, I can't. I knew it was a dream. A dream that I wish it was real.

"WELCOME TO CHILDREN ONCOLOGY WARD-CCF" that was the tittle that I have memorised it by heart. I stood rooted onto the ground. I would have blamed the adrenaline rush in my mind for getting into the oncology ward where the surrounding was very similar to the past.

The air in the ward were filled with components such as chemotherapy drug, smell of food, pieces of alcohol swaps and disinfect detergent from the sink. I tried to get into the bed where my brother had treated the corner as his tent. I knew exactly the location of those beds he had shifted to from a place to another in the same level. 5 locations to be exact.

The first 4 locations of the bed were covered with curtains. It was the last location(High dependency bed) that triggered my memory and emotions. There were many plastic tubes bundled together on the hanger. Machines were beeping and functioning by releasing drug onto the little warrior... ...

I remembered this was the exact scenario my brother had underwent during his last month of his live. The little warrior in the room was indeed very strong. I would really want to salute them for their courage. I knew that I could not take the punch any more. I board the lift and take a stroll in the garden. The garden... ... was the last place I went to for my dinner 9 years ago.

Time:6.11pm, 10 September 2001.
"Mr Khoo, we are sorry, we have did out best..."
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"mummy, where is gor gor?" the innocent girl asked.
"in th....the..... hea..ven....." my mum pointed onto the clear blue sky.

9 years ago, I knew that the blow was too big for my family and I. I remembered that I did not talk to any one for 2 whole weeks. I have problem weeing on my own during the most difficult period of time.

9 Year after... ...

I should say that I am still in the mist of adapting. However, the surroundings of the hospital were too surreal. In the month of September I will remember the day, September the tenth.
I believe time is the best healing medicine in life. I don't mind to wait for another 10 or 20 years for the wound to be heal completely.

2010-08-19T23:19:00.003+08:00

It marks the start of the beginning
But the journey was entangled.

“don’t you miss it?”
that’s always the first question
that send me to pounder.

You would wiggle your digits
and the conjured spirits
would wail and cry

“not really” you say
fixing your expression
to sell the lie

I am your angel
for I will be your limb
I will move when you instruct
I will sob when I feel helpless

Time is not in favour for me
When the night falls
the tired angel would cry, helplessly.
You will be sleeping peacefully.

As I embarked on my new journey of life
I began to question on fate and destiny
WHY DO I ENCOUNTER MISFORTUE OVER AND OVER AGAIN?
for the queen began to remain silent
as she knew she was the victim

The guard was stiff and stubborn
to protet her assest
"help us" we pleaded
The respond would be an ignorant expression

OH! WHY! OH WHY!
me, I catch sight of it
out of the corner of my eye
feel my senses numb

Now
The time is taking its time
to count for the future
Every step it takes
I would feel
an extra pound of weight

Two of us could feel it--burden
I am depressed
DEPRESSED

Be strong
The public would advice
but how??

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Masquerade
is my essential tools for survival.
Both of us.
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Sometime, I wish I could really use a wish
A WISH
to enlighten and prepare for the future
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Maybe discouraged and faltering, but not helpless
When you do something for me that I can
and need to do for myself
you contribute to my fear and inadequacy
I am trying to find my pillar and hearing kit

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"Home is the womb that holds the soul
Home is the place where one is whole
Home is where the family meets
Home is a place of restful retreats"

I can't find this feeling
I found it yesterday
Apparenlt
it dissolves after contacting with water.

2010-08-18T22:15:00.002+08:00

There were many dead bees lying around my neighbourhood, the scene of those little black bodies lying around were soooo disgusting. I am here to question the efficiency of NEA and Nanyang town council. These personnel were puntual towards collecting taxes from its citizen. However, I doubt their abilities towards providing its resident a sparkling green environment to stay in.

2010-08-18T22:14:00.000+08:00

This is so BORING!!! Lalala

2010-08-05T11:30:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I feel like I am wasting my time studying in RP. I prefer to study in westwood where teachers knows what I am thinking and I can approach them directly easily. In poly, I can't do it like this.What happens if was I totally lost in the motopic covered? Keep quiet and try to solve it hard myself. Force my way through.
I is like wasting my times here. And I am soooooo tired of it. Every night, when I sleep, I ask myself what did I learn today... I can't answer myself. It's like wasting my time here.

Morning-> study stress.
Night-> financial.psychological stress

Helplkess souls

2010-08-01T21:54:00.002+08:00

Remember about the post on 5th april 2010? 4 months ago I have blogged about my dad.
It came true. The truth slapped my back so hard that I could not even breathe.
In case you are wondering, here is the link to the older post.

Daddy will be going into the operating theatre tonight for lower knee leg amputation. here is the rough estimates of the below knee amputation.

Thanks auntie meiling for spending your afternoon with me. This decision is hard. However, I need to pretend to be strong on the surface.

I wonder how my future are crafted.I wonder how will my family future be crafted.
The most I can say is, it will be different. Very different.

2010-07-04T19:52:00.002+08:00

I did not blog for one whole month. Haha!
Currently, I am in the mist of preparing for cognitive test tomorrow.
YEAP! GERMANY WON!!!!! 4-0 argentina was thrashed yesterday!!!
In a very very very good mood for today!
I saw Eugeny today! woohoo~! Feel so good to be with her!LOL!
I shall stop here and continue with my revision

2010-06-09T21:38:00.003+08:00

Although I love Sentosa outing and swimming with haikel, naz, Asha, Yayoi, sab, I detest moderate sunburn with rashes I am suffering now.

Although I love Sentosa tanjong beach, I loathe the scorching sun that burns me.

Although the number of people came were just the 12 of us, we love the feeling of playing in the rain and the sun. Not forgetting my beloved sea.

Although I have to wake up early to collect volleyball and frisbee at Gladys house, I am happy that at least we have some games to play while waiting for others to arrive.

I love sentosa.
Not sunburns.
I think I am developing a fever soon. May be slight fever..... Awwwwww

2010-05-23T22:46:00.003+08:00

I went to a trip at Marina Barrage this morning with friends from Blossom Youth. It was sort of marvelous as it was the first time I am making myself a 'HOMEMADE' kite. Sadly, It doesn't fly high enough as compared to others. I saw a pair of couple taking their wedding photos there as well. There were many families out there having picnics and recreations.

It was AWESOME to see kites painting in the contrast colour. Certainly, it brightens up my day and ends off with a wonderful full stop for the week. Homed after which to prepare for topics which will be conducted tomorrow during lesson.

As the week goes by, it doesn't turn out to be well. I turned myself into hatred on the 3 of them. I felt sinful. I want to apologise to them for my actions. However, I feel that I am the coward and often relates it to my stubbornness. I am trapped in the middle of nowhere. Which direction should I turned to?

Dad's sickness-Diabetic Mellitus hasn't been improving. I worried for his health. I wanted to sent him back to Alexandra Hospital but mum was worried about financial matters. Daddy has been whining to terminates his job. I understand his reason behind it however, I felt that it was the stupidest way to solve the problem. I wished my friends will pray with me for my dad's speedy recovery.

How are you? My dear friends out there? Was your poly life exciting? Just endure it and soon we will be enjoying out holiday!!!On the brighter note, the days are drawing near for mass meet up sessions:):):)

Last but not least,Dr Goh Kheng Swee, May you Rest In Peace. Thank you for those marvellous job you have done to make the curent Singapore a vibrant city.

2010-05-08T23:37:00.002+08:00

I promised to blog about the trip to universal studio Singapore. But I didn't.
I was too busy with school work( it feels weird to hear these word coming from RP student). Duh! School was okay for me. I have crazy classmates:) My test(exams) for Sem1 part 1 is coming, I am basically revising and busying transferring my notes to my laptop.

To add on, I am proud to announced that I am not in the same group as S-T-E-L-L-A~! in cognitive module:) I am a bad kid:P

But seriously, I am stating a fact.This is because if I am in the same group as her=lunch time will be reduced=MUST present her ideas to the class=she will do most of the
'TALKING" during presentations=Good luck for your daily grade=squeezing and squashing your brain juice so as to create opportunities to speak up in class.

Nevertheless,I have found my new Jurong West friend in class. HAHAHA! Her name was Ng simin. Her character is similar to kathleen, but she appeared to be more feminine. She is a smoker, but I like her attitude. STRAIGHTFORWARD. She was cool and she was older than me. She is turning 19 this year and both of us have a common point to share: WE DISLIKE STELLA!

For the past few days, I don't feel the urge to come and update my blog. I was so busy with reports after lessons. Internet doesn't seem appealing to me anymore. LOL!

On the brighter side, a meet up session today with xue lin has injected me 1/4 of adrenaline rush into my immune system. She lends me her listening ear while we have our savouring desserts @ our favourite hang out place:)

Sometimes, life and be that simple without money playing the leading cast.

2010-05-03T08:29:00.000+08:00

I don't get it. It is supposed to be post labour day holiday today but I am schooling. This world is bias:(:(:( How I wished october is just next door away from me:(

2010-04-23T20:12:00.002+08:00

2nd post for april.
School was great for me. I love my classmate but not 1 of them.
As I observed her, she belongs to those type of entreme extrovert and outspoken category. And I feel that I find it quite hard to express my opinions in the same team as her. However, I have decided to tell myself subconsiously to think of her strength but not her weakness. Thus making lesser conflict.

WOW! E25A, just 1 week of school, wew have 1 scandal, 1 conflict and 1 enemy. LOL! I have also uploaded the pic of my crazy classmates on facebook. Do check it out if you wants to see who she is. LOL!

Let me hao lian for a while....

Last published Daily Grade and UT Grade for each modules

G101-1-E25A-A : Problem 2 - A

A113-8-E25A-A : Problem 1 - A

G103-2-E25A-A : Problem 1 - B

G105-3-E25A-A : Problem 1 - B

A101-4-E25A-A : Problem 1 - C

**the above information are true to the date of this post.
wh=oohoo, 3A, 2B, 1c. AIM IN RP: 30 As!!!!
meaning: 6As for each modules. I thinks I can make it? 6/15 abit not good sia... for the first 6 weeks I will try to get my As.... Trsut me.

I am sooo excited for tomorrow, WOOHOO!
I will try to update about tomorrow event. LOL!

2010-04-12T20:32:00.002+08:00

I AM ROCKING THE REPUBLIC TWENTY TEN:)

Well, the day started off awesome. Was supposed to meet the guy by 8.30am. However, in the morning, Jurong east station was coughed up with soo many commuters in between East west line and Red lines platform that I can hardly get off from the train. It caused me a great deal as I got to wait for 5 minutes for another train as I missed that 8am train towards Woodlands. Met with the guys @mac at 8.45am instead. We headed off to RP as a gang of 13 people:):) ALL TURNED UP! thumbs up** We stayed as a group together as the same orientation group for the rest of the day.

Home base@ Sports hall was freaking warm as the whole year ones squeezed together there. The atmosphere was not hyped up probably due to that 'awkward feelings' among us??? Director speech next and we proceed off with principal cup. Basically its like the amazing race we have watched in teevee but we got to run around the campus to complete our task.

By noon, that scorching sun was ssooooo warm that I kept whining nonstop to sherilyn (opps, sorry:X:X:X:X) about how that bullshit heat was 'cooking' us up in BBQ style?? In addition, I didnt or forgot to apply sunscreen protector. I hope (crossed my finger) that I will not be tanned again!:( <-------G.O.S.H!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well, westwood did trained me well in my secondary school days to tolerate that humid heat:)

At around 3pm, my mood swing came. I WAS SUPER DROWSY AND FEEL LIKE SLEEPING!!! Sofia told me that I looked like zombie at that point of time. Yeah! I am really is! Miracle do happened to me at least. My drowy-ness was over once that FC SAYS, OK YEAR ONES! YOU MAY GO HOME! WOOHOO!!!! MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

Joyous moment. Rushed home as I am expecting some friend to my house. They just left not long ago. Miss them soo much, hope to see them this Saturday:) Well, after a long post I think I should signed off now.

I should convince myself, RP ISN'T THAT BAD AFTER ALL. JUST TURN YOUR PERCEPTION.

2010-04-05T23:04:00.003+08:00

Every families have their own problems to tackle.

My dad (I called him because I respect him). However, though he is physically and mentality living, staying with me, I couldn't feel his love to me. You may think that, Oh, you are the only child, parents shower you with all their love and attention.I should be content. Yes, I am content. currently. Nevertheless, I am lucky to have a mum whom I can turn too when I am in trouble.

For now, I thinked DAD-might not be a name or salutation I will call upon. Mr. is the name I will name you. Mr. though I am your only child, when do we even talk to each other. 1 day, 3 lines.THE MOST. Mr. when mum was ill, like yesterday, did you even show concerned about her? Her health? Her current mental state? Mr. do you remember when your legs are rotting(diabetic mellitus to be exact)who is there caring for you? Told you to control your blood sugar level, you doesn't listen. Told you not to consumed cold beverage you don't listen. Told you not to touch those drinks/snacks I bought for own consumption, you don't listen. SERIOUSLY, WHEN WILL YOU LISTEN AND LET GO OF YOUR STUBBORNNESS. LISTEN TO OTHERS??? when you are in pain, you complaint. Complaint your wife didn't take care of you WELL ENOUGH. Complaint your boss gave you too much job to do. Complaint your mum doesn't know anything and told her off. Complaint your daughter WILL NOT be the outstanding ones whenever we talk about finance once you are out of job due to your health? and You will selfishly concluded to sell the house to make ends meet. COMPLAINT ABOUT HOW YOUR BOSS GAVE YOU SO MANY TASK TO COMPLETE FOR A DAY THAT YOU DIDNT HAVE THE TIME TO GO FOR CONSULTATION? In the first place, IF YOU CHOOSE TO CHANGE YOUR HABIT, YOU WON'T BE SUFFERING NOW OR NEAR FUTURE.

Well, you should wake up. Every month, guess how much money were invested into YOUR health supplements whereby all these money both mum and I can actually pamper ourselves with facial treatments, holidays, or shopping?? Why are we doing such things and you are not appreciative? Rather, you are enjoying with cans of Cold BEVERAGE which you aren't suppose to consume in the first place? Your own medicine. You wants mum to serve it to you EVERY MORNING as if your are the emperor of this century. DAMM IT! ENOUGH!

Oh, I think you will NOT LEARN your lesson until the day you are in the operating theater. Being send in by kind souls who found you remained unconscious along the roadside. A&E department contacted us that amputation is required. Post surgery: you will be staying at home, mum, whose health are not supreme becomes the sole breadwinner. She got to take care of her job as well as your "H-E-A-L-T-H" with a handicapped husband. Or until the day you must required kidney dialysis???

Let me tell you, but the time NO ONE IN THIS WORLD WILL PITY YOUR SITUATION. I am expecting hot tempered HANDICAPPED daddy that day. Not only that day mark a start of my agony, but yours. WHY? WHY? WHY? IN THE FIRST PLACE YOU DOESN'T WANT TO HEED PEOPLE ADVICES? Do you know how skinny you are due to your sickness, your body is? Do you know because of this I dare not walk beside you on the streets because people are wearing coloured specs? and bullet gun mouth? Do you know whenever there is parent teacher meeting, I yearned and prayed that its not you to turn up for this meeting whenever mum couldn't take leaves?

I admit that I am not a good daughter would can't do you proud in terms of academically. On the other hand, I'm trying. Do you help me when I doesn't know how to solve the sums nor coming up with ideas for essays? No, all you do was to throw me in tuition using money. (yeap thanks and I appreciate to have a tutor to guide me along.) I depend on myslef for these but I am still not smart enough as compared to XXX. Well, At least I got into republic poly, studying the course I like. I WANT TO GET INTO A DECENT UNIVERSITY. BUT WHAT IS THE POINT OF ALL THESE ACHIEVEMENT IF WE ARE NOT FINANCIALLY STABLE? You knew that we can't rely on our relatives (you aren't close to them nor they are close to you). I'm here saving up every month to buy or get the things I want. LET ME ASK YOU. DO I ASK YOU FOR MONEY WHENEVER I SAW APPARELS I LIKE ONLINE?DO I ASK YOU FOR MONEY WHENEVER I GO FOR SHOPPING? DO I ASK YOU FOR MONEY EVEN WHEN I NEED TO PURCHASE A LAPTOP FOR SCHOOLING?
The answer is NO. I admire people who has a healthy dad. Really. I don't mind all these for as long as you take care of your health. Please.

You are left with this only daughter.
Using a very childish thought to think for future: when you are really handicapped and we are really financially constrain. I have 2 solutions:
1) Mum and I are going to leave together. You I will send you to old folks home.
2) We continue to live under one roof. But whenever you shout or quarreled, I WILL rebuttal back, THIS IS WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO YOURSELF. YOU HAVE NO ONE TO BLAME BUT YOURSELF! THOSE ADVICE WE MADE, DO YOU REALLY TREAT WHAT WE SAID? NO. O-R-B-E-E-G-O-O-D.

Well, I will not.I will still regret you as my dad. But I will not respect you. REALLY. TRUST ME. Line 2 I will say no matter what. You may comment unfilial I am or how unfortunate you are to have such a jerk daughter. IN THE FIRST PLACE? DO YOU ACTUALLY LISTEN TO WHAT I HAVE SAID EARLIER? DO YOU?

Worst, Your mum will come to our house as if this is a new bank. Where do I actually print those notes for her? Mum? she needs to settle bills of this house. ME? I didn't work, where would I have all these money? Next, you blamed me for not becoming outstanding. Do I want it?Do I want myself landing in these muddy soil? I have tried. But I couldn't. What about you? You claimed that you have graduated with a SEC 4 CERT! LOL! So where is the cert? see? no cert.LOL! I am laughing with all my teeth falling off.

SO? CONCLUSION? I DOESN'T HAVE A CONCLUSION. WE SHALL JUST WAIT AND SEE.
好心你啦，戒口行不行？就算不为自己，也为别人想一想啦。。。。。。别忘了你年世以高又不会想又stubborn的母亲要养啦。。。。你这么酱的？永远讲不听？Tsk!!!是不是要等到脚锯掉你才来后悔？拜托！到时候的苦是无法体会的。不止你苦，做你的太太，你的女儿，甚至是你身边的人也会苦。何必呢？？？

你很自私leh!!!!!
没办法，我上辈子欠你的。Bo Bian lurhh... Haizzz!

:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

2010-04-05T13:35:00.002+08:00

The memory's keeper daughter.
Movie was far worse than the original novels:( most of those exciting parts are missing(BOO!) I rate it 3/5 stars.
Next,

I rate it 3/5. Most of the plot appeared in the movie are book 1 a bit of book 2. That Halloween plot appeared for 10mins. But the story I read is so funny, why??

This guy, his name is karan brar. His charater name: Chirag Gupta. His reaction is so hilarious:):):)

Gosh, I have just realized that I didn't blog for 3 whole weeks:)
*grins*
I'm busying watching dramas, writing and thinking(rotting to be accurate).
Spamming myself with movie before poly actually starts(gosh its a week time. Cant believe time flies that fast!)
Outing for the next few days.
Kathleen, SAFRAAAAA!!!!!
I have to run now, I'm going to be late sooon, bye!!!

2010-03-21T21:07:00.002+08:00

Another week had passed.
Which means to say three more weeks to poly.
I am not looking forward-.- in all aspect, be it making new friends, traveling journey, etc. These ideas... I just loathe it upon facing them. Haiz...
For now the choice I can think of is to take one step at a time. Perhaps Adaptability?? it the best words to use?
I want to watch diary of an wimpy kid, toy story 3, kidnapper......
I want FRITTERS from lau pa sattt, XIAOFEN, LOOK!! LAO PA SATT!!!!! or golden shoeeee:):):) KATHLEEN QUEK OK!?!?!?!

To end off, happy schooling peepo!!
And I will be stuck in raffles, to be exact cecil street for the coming weekkkk

2010-03-12T10:50:00.002+08:00

I have purchased my laptop and it's going to arrived 15days later.
School is still not starting soon. I am bored at home.
I knew 2 friends from my course, zafirah and perindeur:):) Nice chatting with my future mates:)
I want to work. badly. Because I expect my savings to decrease with a total of $1100.
THAT'S EQUALS TO MY 2 MONTHS PAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Furthermore, it DOESN'T make a difference to the amount of savings I have before and after working. GOD DAMM SHIT!

2010-03-03T22:05:00.002+08:00

Last day of work at Protek yesterday. I missed gossips, I missed after lunch hours facebooking, I miss complaints from customers(LOL) I missed sharing our biscuits with Lana and Jolene. I missed Steven mentioning about Room 2(inside joke!)

Woke up early by the irritating contractor and stupid bulldozer!!!!!!!! KONG KONG KONG! woke me up from beauty sleep-.-!!! I am offficially out of job, Need a job, lobang? Please contact me at sistic731@hotmail.com:)

Bored!!!!

2010-02-27T08:34:00.003+08:00

Huiyi is currently working in the compay. Last two day at Protek company:)
I'm going for interview at Outram later, followed by Sim Lim Square at Bugis.
Lee fang's last day today, heard for the account department that a new male staff is reporting to work on Monday. LOL!

Morning run begins next Wednesday.
Currently airing 第几个100天 by JJ Lin on 933FM! LOL!
I'm being so random here.

Oya! Gosh for the past three months, I've been spending money like water:X I saw more 'Withdrawal' transaction details that 'Deposit' details;X on my saving account book:X
LOL!

I want to visit Fiona badly. I think I shall visit her tomorrow, I don't care. Butbutbut, there's fann's event tmr!!!!! Contradicting.

2010-02-22T22:20:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday To Myself.
Thank you everyone for their wishes:)
Thank you friends who took their time off and went out with me:)

Interview in the morning @Sim Lim square with shanie. Afterwhich went over Guan yim temple at bugis to pray. Rushed back to Jurong Point for celebration. Chat alot in train while travelling home. Found another true friend whom I can really spill out all my opinion on people without being backstabbed!:):)

Lunch at pizza hut with xuelin, szetong, kathleen, vaneh,limei,xiaofen and weimeng. Thanks again for the mini cake that xuelin, szetong,kathleen have brought for me, feel so touched ^^
Kbox after which with the clique we- xuelin,kath,szetong,xiaofen, me book a room while the another clique book the other room. Super HIGH! And I sang 25min:):)Hahaha! Korean song and english song. My voicebox has sexy voice now~~~~

Home to catch cruel temptation @ channel u:) kay I think that's enough of update.]
Super love my day^^ Thank you friends:):) Going off to drink birdnest now, byye!

2010-02-21T21:43:00.003+08:00

Officially last post for sixteen.

Hello! Miss me?! LOL! Too many things have happened over the past few days.
Friday, Mum's friend came to my house for visiting at night. LOL! **skipped**
Sat, CNY visiting. We- pearl, kath, xuelin,xiaofen, me. 1st:my place ->xuelin's place ( manicure for xiao fen LOL!) -> kathleen's place, tai ti, blackjack all come. Lost many gold coins(fake) and eventually went bankrupt twice. Pearl's house for majong and fishing. Learnt many new tactics:):) and lastly random thought of leying house for majong session^^ end, LOL girls day out= gambling session LOL!

Sunday, Out with shanie and zihao to plaza sing today. Shopping and chilled out at TCC for drink and gossip. NICE! I LIKE IT:) adding on to a cup of Caramel Azuki Frappe. WOOHOO! what a refreshing afternoon:) Home early, not joining them for movie as someone's coming my house. Dad's ex colleague came and mum's BFF came too. Just went off a moment ago. Clearing up the mess and tada, online^^

Not working tomorrow. HAHA!!!!!!!

2010-02-18T22:36:00.002+08:00

444, not a good sign??
Mummy on leave today= party timeeeee:)
LOL! For the past few days in office, I'm enjoying every single minute there. ^^ (May be itr's due to CNY? Everyone's in the festive mood?= No scolding, lesser complaint received from customers)

HK Dramas chilled my nights. I have been watching these dramas one after another(LOL!)
Excitedddd abt gatherings on sat(Though only 5 ppl coming) and tmr's gathering at studentcare (childcare centre) HAHAHA!

LOL! Till then:)
I'm happy, but gets moody when tuition fee when up:(

2010-02-16T20:14:00.002+08:00

Herbie is fully loaded:):)
Work tomorrow, I'm very excited and kinda looking forward:):)
Well, this year's CNY was rather quiet?? I guess it's due to the absence of fiona(L). Cousins of mine didn't communicate all kept quiet:( super quiettt... lol, alright bye:) Back to herbie:)

2010-02-15T20:59:00.001+08:00

happy chinese new year everyone:)
income falls below expectation this year.
Haizzz....

happy birthday vaneh and jia bao.
happy belated birthday yiqin, huishi, geraldine( 14 feb)
happy belated birthday olive(13 feb)

2010-02-10T09:13:00.002+08:00

Currently stoning in office.

Well, CNY's coming (Duh~!) Everyone knows-.-
Idah's on leave today. No wonder it's so quietttt....
Drafted out a plan for compo during office time.

@9.17am
Bored bored bored!!!!
Wake up timeeeee, but I'm sleepyyyy
No one is online.

Kay, My blog is dead and re filled with boring post. What to do? Office life~~~
Ps. school life is better...
regret.

2010-02-07T21:40:00.002+08:00

Bored bored bored!!!!
Medicure ytd at lot 1 after work. Far east and home.
It's boring I know. Can't wait for poly to start.
Adult fare suck to the max...

2010-02-03T09:58:00.002+08:00

Finally Awesome Feb is here.
Life's boring ttm!!!
I missed TVB awards ceremony last friday!!! ARGHH!!!
I have actually forgotten 27 jan'10 which was fann's 39th birthday:P:P:P
Bo bian, I'm super busy over posting result:(
Well, work is fine and I'm counting down......... 25 more days till my contract ends^^
When march arrived, I have totally no idea what I'm gonna do.... ROT THE WHOLE MONTH?! WORK?! IDK!!!!
CNY's coming, yeap! Gatherings;)
Looking forward to the whole of this month:)
Back to work. Haiz

2010-01-30T08:55:00.003+08:00

RP- Biomedical Science

I like the word, biomedical science, but not RP.
Went to appeal for Sp remaining course that is available for me in the JAE appeal system. Not much hope pinned as I knew chances for success is very slim.

My gugu(aunt) was called back home on thursday morning. Attend the wake yesterday night in eunos. It really makes me ponder, What's the used of education and all the hardwork we have achieved in this live? Ultimatlely, EveryONE IN THIS WORLD will leave. And When I leave, Where will I go? Reincarnate to become animals? to become a fairy? to become human again( where? which country? Gender? Which color? Which religion?) or worst, to reincarnate to become a soul suffering in hell?

I told mummy:
Me: mummy, after I die, where will I go?
Mum: That will depends on your deeds.
Me: I'm very scared. I scared I've not enough of good deeds to be able to reincarnate to a better lives. And I'm scared to leave this world, bringing all those bad deeds I've done.
Mum: no comment.
Me: Ma, is there any thing that can guarantee my next life a better one?
Mum: There is a way. No comments.
(On the way back home, taxi ride)
Me: Ma, if I wanna become a nun, will you support me?
Mum: yes I will.

It have been ages since I last saw my cousin (my dad's side) Finally, I got to know their names, teck heng and teck soon. Chatted more with teck heng. All I can say was, they are really strong, though gugu left them. I really like to call the older cousin teck soon really reallyreally much. Because, this name was my brother name. Calling his name really reminds me of my own brother....

Well after viewing so many episodes of live, I've learnt to accept fate. To cast off mental burdens, because my ultimate aim is not this live. I want to gain ultimate bodhi mind and get out of this reincarnation process.

We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make our world.
~Buddha

2010-01-26T13:04:00.001+08:00

Don't like people working in the ordering department.
It's so annoying and idiotic plus super hot tampered.

2010-01-25T16:03:00.002+08:00

I've run out of things to blog:P
Back from malaysia on sat evening. Freaking bored! I'd much rather go for chingay practices-.- Dinner and home. On sunday, slack around doing nothing at home. See? Life's boring:(:(
I'm planning to take leave on 2feb or 8 feb for shopping. I wanna revisit new look, forever 21 again!!! But It won't be during weekends. 2 more days yo!

2010-01-21T16:19:00.002+08:00

Have not been online-ing for the past few days. The moment I got home, I feel like sleeping. Totally don't have the mood to go online and watch hong kong dramas nowadays. Facebook are super boring... However, it's a good ranting place whenever the manager went crazy and scolded us. Haiz. Been missing out loads of fun/catchup/sleep/online/friends/shopping(not really, been shopping too much online for the past few days) ever since o level ends.

TO: THE MANAGER!!!
I WANT TO TAKE LEAVEEEEE, CAN??

manager: Can, It's a NO PAY DAY LEAVE
me: zzzzzz.....

I have Haagen dazz(sp?) ice cream voucher who wants to go eat with me???

2010-01-18T21:39:00.002+08:00

Whenever I ddn't feel like helping out in those hazzle chores, mum always bring up the topic of my results and starts to compare with her 'born smart' friend's kid.
Whenever I watch online movie especially at night, she will again bring up the topic of the cause of such result. Like, (SEE? NO TV, YOUR GRADES WOULDN"T BE LIKE THIS... AIYA UP TO YOU, YOUR FUTURE IS IN YOUR OWN HAND...what I say now you may
not listen, loook at your stupid result...)
Whenever money are concerns, she will nag at me why I didn't do well enough to get into JC instead so that she will not have to spent expensive tuition fees over poly.

But, mum I know you are using your激将法to stop me from watching dramas. You want me good. However, I have already accept the fact that ya, stupid. This is me. Cannot be change. So please stop comparing with lee wei de and your friend's children who are born smart. I'm just a lower-than-average teenage. I'm not perfect.. In fact, I did my best this time round..

I hope you will read this post. I want to go to university.

2010-01-17T12:31:00.003+08:00

Work->Bugis->313->Home.
How I wished 31th January to arrive like now. Because I need my pay for shopping.
Skipped the first chingay practice yesterday as I ended my work like late ytd.
Went shopping instead. And, we spent money like water:((N) shake head***

Been trying not to think so far and hard while moving on with life. Let's just hope that I ended up in the first four choice I have chosen....

And oh, yesterday was brother's 19th birthday. This day equals to we are apart for 9 years. How are you doing in heaven? Please take care and I miss you very much. Happy birthday.

2010-01-14T22:10:00.001+08:00

I have finally understand this word,一山还有一山高.
My primary school friend scored all As, for his O level raw score, you know?! super envious**
Raw score somemore. Me? Haizzzzzz~

2010-01-13T23:02:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the lack of update. After a 2 good cry out day, I am more calm and have decided the route I'm going to take.

1) Retake english this year as private candidate. Retake for the sake of nicer ink printed on the slip.
2) Accept, Get a life and move on!

So, here are the course which are more or less done with:
SP Applied chemistry with pharmaceutical sciences
NP Perfumery & cosmetic science
SP Chemical & biomoleculer engineering
SP Biotechnology (Shhh, don't tell mummy!!!)
NYP Chemistry & pharmaceutical science
SP Hotel & leisure management
RP Biomedical sciences
SP Interior Design
NP Horticulture & Landscape management
NP Early childhood education
NP Multi media animation
NP Nursing

Sort of finalised? Too bad, all science course as I got d7 for English:(:(
Went to Republic poly for course counselling as well as to find out more about their teaching style. Was okay with that and super keen in biotech there. However, mum says girl should better stay out of all these('dirty'?) things for IDK reasons.(she's abit of 'old people' mentality:( )Nevertheless, I will still give biomedical science @ RP a try. Treat the true friend pastamania @ causeway point and homed to watch dramas and as well as to sit and cafted out my future.

Really need to thank The TRUE friend MUM and The TRUE friend for your support and listening ears. At least you let me understand that that's still not the end of the world. At least I'm still lucky enough to have an understanding parents and allows me to choose whatever I wants while giving me support.

2010-01-11T21:33:00.002+08:00

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2010-01-10T22:22:00.003+08:00

On the eve of result day....
DOOMSSS!!!!!!!!!
panic, aimless, worried, excited, bored.... Mixed feelings.
I hope the black and white printed in the slip isn't that dramatic.haiz.... shake head****
haiz.... shake head****haiz.... shake head****haiz.... shake head****haiz.... shake head****
I hope the result I dreamt last night will not appear in the actual one.
No more tight sleep for tonight. Been looking through courses from different brooches. If I got above 15, hello nursing.If I got 10-12, hello biotech(Y)! Haizzzz.......

I prayed to my dear Buddha every 6 hours, hoping that miracles do happen.
ON THE EVE OF RESULT DAY..

2010-01-09T22:21:00.002+08:00

Which 'P' should I choose?

SP->NP-> JP->home

Currently, here's what in mind for my choice of study:

1st: S72 Diploma in Biotechnology (SP, 12pts)
2nd: Diploma in Biomedical laboratory technology (NP, 9pts)<- hard to get in sia!!!
3rd: Diploma in chemical and biomolecular engineering (NP, 14pts)
4th: Diploma in Molecular biotechnology(NP, 12pts)
5th: Diploma in Child Psychology and early education (NP, 13pts)
6th: Diploma in Chinese Media and communication (NP, 13pts)

Went over to SP and Np open house today with Xiaofen, kathleen, kaiseng and Junwei.
We played paint balls @ SP's CCA FIESTA. Fun:):) After which, hopped over to Np open house in the afternoon. WOW! there's so many ppl! LOL! we didn't managed to go to all schools. Business school doesn't seem appealing to me. Next was School of humanities. Take a look at the courses like Early childhood educations, child psychology, Chinese media and communications etc. NExt, we went over to school of chemical and life sciences. HAHA! Totally fasinated with molecular biotechnology as it reminds me of forensic heroes!!! Fingerprintssssss:):):) Secondly, I likeeeee biomedical laboratory technology. Learn alot from the counsellors that biomedical laboratory does many experiments stuff(Y) and it's cool laaaa!!!

Lastly, we went to visit nursing(?) block. LOL! Actually, Nursing course is not bad leh, will considered to pen down as one of my choices? I told mum, if my result suck, then I will go nursing, she said ok! LOL! Didn't have the time to visit optometry course as by the time we reach there, it's closing down.

Bused home with kiaseng, and xiaofen. Dinner with xiaofen as home. Xiaofen argh, get well soon kay!!!

2010-01-07T22:56:00.002+08:00

Woohoo! I'm going U.....S..... on march. YESYESYES!
Kena scolded by wendy(manager) though not my fault LOL! suan le. I missed that bus of 193 in the morning as there are way too many people boarding the bus at the same time:( Too a direct bus t company instead. I bought a lace tee:) nicenice, belle I show you on wed kay:P

I felt 1.2 magnitude of'earthquake' whenever think of my result... Weekends blues:(:(:(
Haiz....

32 more dayssss!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-06T21:52:00.002+08:00

Result day on monday. I think I shall hide on the toilet on 11/1/2010 at 2pm all the way to 4pm. Trust me and I will do it. Pray hard that I won't feel disappointed over it. Applied 2 day leave (NO PAY!) next week on Monday and Wednesday respectively. Well, I find it tired to work for 3 months(ONLY). Same cycle repeats daily, unlike school term we get to have different lessons in a single day. SUPERRRRRRR BOREDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And those task are like expected... Well, no choice, I have to endure for another 33 days, after deducting alternate sat off, sun, Public holidays, and my leaves. (excluding today)

33 more dayssss!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-04T20:49:00.002+08:00

What a cool morning to start off for the day! The company bus was sooo late and by the time we reached protek, it's almost 9am:):). Many many salesman returned back to office for IDK reasons. After a longggg holidays, purchase orders from various parts of Singapore are jamming my fax machine:( Many many letters and many many samples to prepare:( Poor Carolyne, she has to type Delivery Orders as fast as possible:(

I missed school. I missed 4 finger socks, I missed nagging from miss nithiya. I missed the malay rice. I missed that plate of friend curry. I missed chionging to school with joyce without fail for 4 years. I missed going home with xuelin whom I can speak out my concerns to her. I miss that 11.30 AIR CON TIMEEE. I missed my tables and chairs.
Last but not least, I missed my friends.

2010-01-03T21:37:00.002+08:00

A trip down to Ikea in the afternoon with mum to search for my bedroom curtains. We were fascinated with those accessories but decided not to buy them as we are going back to JP to buy groceries as well as some shopping. Hence, after walking 2 full rounds of Ikea, decided to get myself a flower design curtain.

Walked around Anchorpoint before heading back to JP. Mm bought me a shoe:):) Thank you:):):):) Fairprice extra next and OMFG! it;s super crowded with people. Popular next to get the postal code book but in the end, gave up as I couldn't stand the longgggg queue. Parents are doing their last minute shopping, causing popular to be crowded as well:(

It's abit awkward to me as tmr being a official day for schooling, I'm working.
I missed schools, wearing that uniforms, always-rushing-for-school-inorder-to-make-it-on-time-trip-with-joyce, belle and joan, fast walking pace.....
Arghhh, How I wish that I'm schooling tmr! But shag, I don't like test:P

To sum up, it's sunday and tmr's monday. People studying while im working:(

2010-01-02T23:42:00.003+08:00

Worked in the morning. Blogshopped with Belle was cancelled today which means I've spent my afternoon watching dramas:):):) Was abit late in meeting andrea and co at JP. Bused to Dickson's house for BBQ. People present: Me, andrea, xiaofen, shanie, sheridin, vanessa, siwei, junwei, dickson, weimeng, zongsheng, jun wei, andy, elton, daniel.... I thinked that's all? Thanks auntie for cooking been hoon as well as preparing those food for us:)

Chat with shanie and the other girls, catch up with each other:) Glad to see them next week again:):) I thinked I've blogged enough, back to drama marathon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-01T21:05:00.002+08:00

Currently, watching Michael Jackson History World Tour Concert: Copenhagen on Channel 5.
Heal the world as we are closer to 2012. Happy 2010:) Happy birthday xiao yee and cailing:):)
Just came back from xiao yee's house. Played with fiona and corrine:) They are soooo cute and adorable:)

Tmr, I'm going out with belle for shopping after work. Afterwhich BBQ with 4G mates. Can't wait can't wait!!!!!!

2009-12-31T16:44:00.003+08:00

Busy Busy Busy!!!
From morning till evening, I'm busy with loads of workload. From closing of files to preparing of bottles to passing out POs... Arghhh.... Luckily, I'm gonna knock off soon:P Michelle's last day today as she's gonna go or maternity leaves.
Countdown @ night/
Bye2009 the grueling year, hello 2010:D:D

2009-12-29T20:06:00.002+08:00

i don't know what to blog nowadays. Worked as usual and it's getting boringer~. Fell asleep while recording cheque at the same time:P Hope my dear managers didn't see this scene:P:P
OYA! FUCK MYSELF! I FORGOT TO BROUGHT MY WALLET TODAY TO WORK! god dam it! I've to take a 13minutes walk to and fro from my house to jp-.-

Anyway, I'm looking forward to this week. KACHING! However... ... I've just found out that part of my salary needs to credit to CPF-.- (whinning non stop~~~)
Alright, Gotta have my dinner now, buhbye:)

2009-12-27T22:24:00.002+08:00

Currently watching:向日葵的约定，海派甜心..
I wantedto watch another drama: 绝世双标 by charmaine sheh(L). But i wanna watch D.I.E!!!
shag.The new boonlay interchange is big and cosy:) me like:) Shopping with mum a moment ago. Bought alot of things:) kay I wanna watch 向日葵的约定 now, buy~!

DANG! WORK TOMORROW! SIAN!!!!!!

2009-12-26T11:55:00.002+08:00

Thank god, you gave me the best christmas present for this year.
Mum has discharged from hospital yesterday afternoon;):)
Accompanied her nack home and off I went to small yee'shouse for family gathering:)
Family BBQ!!! And Fiona has grown very very tall, corrine knows how to stand and walkabit:) so cute***
2nd aunt's bobo chacha was superb:) niceniceeee:):)
And I love these gatherings:)
Homed and slept.
MSN conversation later with kath. uhuh, that's all. Today's my offday:) Haiz, next week, second day of the new year is my 'on' day.tsk. BYE!!!!

Pay day's comingggg~~
And oh,happy birthday jaslyn:)

2009-12-24T21:42:00.003+08:00

平安夜。

今年的平安夜，与往年不同。
妈妈生病，两天前因为肝发炎住进医院。
放工后，我如火箭似的，程搭巴士直蹦回家。
抱着一颗开心的心情等着妈妈回来。
电梯门开起，仿佛一颗颗向日葵正在迎接我。
心花怒放。
可是，当我越靠近自己的家门与邻居格格不入，家的外墙，黑漆漆的。
没有家人的温暖。
当爸爸放工回来时，告知我妈妈还不能回来。
你可想而知，当时那颗载着一颗满怀希望的我，仿佛宛如冷热水，从我顶头只涌而下。
心痛。失望。担心。焦急。

打开电视映幕，看着人们为了佳节选购礼物，为佳节忙碌得连‘累‘字都没写在脸上。
在世界的另一个角落，我能感受到佳节所带来“与家人共享天伦之乐“的温暖。
在这里，今年的平安夜。。。。。。
HAIZzzzzzzz

一个人孤独在家，一个人度过圣诞节，一个人度过平安夜。
一个人吃着那包冷冰冰的炒饭。
晚上，阿姨慰问我为何妈妈进医院，没通知她。从一开始，是妈妈要我保持低调。。。。。。
有阿姨的那一通电话，我感觉安心多了。

人们可以说我是不孝女，妈妈入院，我不对外说，也没去探望她。。。。。。
其实在我内心深处，吴时时刻刻都在关心着妈妈的身体情况。但，却因为自己的不好意思，我无法表达自己对妈妈关系的那一面。

或许，对你来说，我很没用。但，在你质问我前，设深处地的想，
我从小，发生过的那一件事，让我从此封闭自己的一分之四。
这几年，我很努力去寻找那一串“育人沟通，表达自己“得那一串钥匙。
可以说，我还是找不着。

平安夜，我向在夜空中的圣诞老公公祈祷，
妈妈明天能够平平安安的出院。

------- 慧仪
24/12/09， 22:22pm

2009-12-24T19:45:00.002+08:00

Dear Santas,

All I wish for this year's Christmas present is to regain my mum's health and a pass for discharge tomorrow. All I hope for is a pass for all test conducted today. I detest to be all alone for tonight. You may laugh at me but seriously, I have a phobia of staying all alone at a dark gloomy night. Daddy is going to accommpany mum at hospital tonight. How shall I spentmy night today. **Tears dripping down like a uncontrolled pipe**

I have no mood to do anything but to pray. Not for own's happiness but my mum's speedy recovery.

2009-12-23T21:31:00.003+08:00

Hi! 2 days before Christmas. Supplier send us a 3kg Christmas log cake for us. It's blueberry flavour:) Everyone including the uncles working in the factory get to have their share.

Mum has admitted to hospital yesterday night. I couldn't managed to visit her as by the time I knocked off and rushed to hospital, it have already past visiting hours. well, Hope she will be well and discharge tomorrow. God bless.

Work is fine for this week. It's rather weird for me as I felt totally high in the office. LOL! And you won't even imagine it if Idah (colleague) and I 'danced' the Pink Panther dance in front of the reception area. HAHA!

Haiz, I feel so weird today on the way to company as I saw many many new 'anticipated going to be sec 1s next year' eagerly reorting to their new secondary schools today. I meant, I kinda miss schooling, my dear friends and teachers. Not forgetting homeworks piling during holidays. So memorable, yet fun. How I wish I can go back to campus again( LOL!)

Ohwell, I think I have blog a rather lengthy post today. Till then:)

2009-12-20T19:29:00.002+08:00

Completed gong xin ji drama serial. What's next? D.I.E or hai pai tian xin? tell me.....
Shopping spree ytd with Belle at orchard. Think twice before buying as my budget is only 50bucks. I think I will need to revisit orchard again on wed to get bottoms before those on going promotions are over. Kimchi pancake as our dinner and OMG! orchard was flooded with people. Though lights are everywhere, people were majority! Managed to squeezed out of orchard by taking a express bus home. 2hrs of bus ride! Home and dang, slept.

Brand new week tmr! yes! 3 days off! buhbye!

2009-12-19T10:43:00.002+08:00

My last post was 3 days ago. Well, there's nothing special happening for the past few days. Currently watching gong xin ji ep 26. LOL! I know I'm slow. Work as usual.

Was really glad that my friends I cared alot from the N.A stream did super well and were promoted to Sec 5. WELL DONE! On the other hand, I must also congratulate Adrian, xueming as well as stanley khor for being the 'top students of the year;)

Speaking of results, I'm worried for my O level results. Heard from other school mates they said that it will most likely to release on week 1 of January 2010! OMYGAWD!

Well, Currently, working with Idah in the office. No manager= PARTY TIME!!! In the mean time, I'm sitting down at the reception counter shaking legs, eating tiger (elton taught me this, LOL!:)

alrightz bye:) Night time, catch me @ Orchard shopping^^ Santas next friday! OYES!

2009-12-16T22:16:00.002+08:00

Though Manager applied half day leave in the afternoon, MANAGING DIRECTOR didn't! Miracle, this director stayed all the way till knock-ed off time-.- Super not a party time:( and the next half of the day was super draggy with little job to do, sitting in front of the reception counter shake leg for 1hr flat-.- Knocked off, banked in cheque and home sweet home.

Gong xin ji ep 19, 20B. Shall turn in early and wake up early tmr to catch this show, internet is freaking laggeedddd...

2009-12-14T22:29:00.002+08:00

Here am I blogging again. Was abit late catching 7.30am bus to work in the morning:P Secondly, I think it's due to Monday Blues, people are hainge foul mood. 1st thing in the morning received 1st complaint call, kena scolded from customer, WL! Not my job and I kena scolded! Nvm. Thanks to the salesman, staff from the admin dept(including me) kena scolded by manager for not taking down informations properly, but WHT, the customer is having her foul mood and when we asked for her company's contact number as well as names, they smashed the phone you know! In the end, WE KENA SCOLDED! WL!

And IDK why, I have to handle so manymanymany letters, manymanymany PO (Purchase Order)... Y&*(%^*(&^E$^&^& In addition, I slept super late last time. Was having super bad mood from 8am-10am.... FUCK!

Whatever, forget it. I'm just throwing my angers here. Back to watch GONG XIN JI RDY. BYE!

2009-12-13T21:14:00.003+08:00

DEAD! I think I have contracted "forensic science trauma" as if I do not watch this drama 1 day, I feel weird...
Current obsession:

Charmanie sheh(left) and Yoyo Mung- Mdm Leung in FH1&2 (Right):):):)
Love both of them:D:D:D

And current drama that I'm watching: 宮心計

Nice show:) The story plot is abit similar to dachangjeum, something got to do with fighting for names in the royal palace. But It's nice:):):) worth a catch:):)
Hmm, I think today's post is quite lennghty and enough for the day. I think I shall stop here and contiune my 宮心計 before mum's nagging me to go to bed.
Buhbye:):)

2009-12-12T19:39:00.002+08:00

Super Immersed in Detective shows:D OMG! I have completed both Forensic Heros I and II. Really love yoyo mung and charmaine sheh:) They are fabulous:)
Really hope that TVB will film Forensic Heros serial next year, I can waitwaitttt:):):) Currently indulge myself in D.I.E serial 1:) nice drama. Mum has been telling me not to watch this type of dramas too often as there are too many 'corpse' and 'cutting of corpse' (forensic), she's afraid of these things... But too bad, I just love such dramas/movies.
Great, been spending my off day watching tvb, and I totally don't regret it:)
Going Orchard next sat to see lights, together with FIONA:) and corrine:) Looking forward towards meeting them.

Andrea, Adrain happy birthday!(though it's tmr:P HAHA!

2009-12-11T23:08:00.002+08:00

Off day tomorrow:) WOOHOO~! Finally I can sleep till 11am:):) shiokshiok! Xavier's black forest cake was yumyum(L) woohoo:) nice:) Thank You uncle Kelvin for your treat:) Hmm, bye I want to continue my dramas now:)

2009-12-09T22:09:00.003+08:00

Forensic Science is (L) 300 letters to be mailed today and I have used a total of 318 stamps:o I think 'head' and 'salesman' aren't having their good mood today, pms? But there are guys there?! DUH!

Happy birthday minxian:) Went to K-box @ jurong safra to pass things to xiaofen and home sweet home:) PS, sorry my dear tv, I have not been gluing myself onto your screen for almost 4 days:P Rest assured that on sat you will have my time:)

2 more weeks to 2010, what have YOU been doing for the whole of 2009?

2009-12-07T21:57:00.002+08:00

Stupid Teenage Girl Ice cream seller, OMFG! So rude, no wonder no one buys ice-cream from her-.- ALARMAK, Don't I knew they can earn commission for every ice-cream they sold? LOL! FUCKING RUDE, Luckily my parents didn't bought from them-.-

(back to the daily posting)
Been watching Forensic science after my knocked off timing. Less calls, more things to print, memorize and fax-.- whatever, don't complain! Thinking of buying chemicals soap from this company, but very heavy leh...... LOL!

WHATEVER< MY POST SOUNDS VERY LAME. KAY< GOOD BYE:)

2009-12-05T19:22:00.003+08:00

EASY WORKLOAD FOR WEEKENDS:)
I was almost late for work today:P as I missed my bus at 7.40am:( For the 4 hours in the office, 1/4 of my time were playing fb, see that's how slacking can it be despite my empress dowager was keeping an eye of what I was doing:) After my knocked -ff time, roamed around JP as I do not feel the urge of going home. Currently, I've just came back from grandma house, kena scolded by dad when I first stepped into the house for not switching off my laptop and bedroom lights :S

I saw many many nice nice books and I want to read them:( I don't care, I must visit library to search for them next week. Belle texted me in the morning asking me if I'm interested in BBQ today:( It clashed with my schedule at 5pm leh, sorry next time kay?

Anyone interested to go window shopping with me @ 313 somerset, the new shopping malls??? The reviews of this malls not bad, according to the newspaper.

2009-12-03T21:53:00.002+08:00

Phew, weekdays are coming to an end. I want to watch Zombieland badly. And Woods are stupid, I don't like him(though he's good in golf~) I hate people who have no hygiene. OMG! They loved to 'wipe' their mucus on papers and 'touch' those stationery on the table. Super unhygienic and has no civil-mindedness. You wouldn't even believe me if I states that these people might even pretend to pat you on your back, in actual fact, they are spreading flug bug to you. Rushed back home hurriedly as soak my clothes for 2hours using dettol. I have even wiped my bag using Amway mutli-purpose solution.-.- ( It sounds so sick but I just can't stand myself being sick:( )

Boring shows. SUN!!!!!!! arrive earlier so that I can catch an appointment with idol(L) Yupyupyup:) On the other hand, why are adults, especially those hit 30s loves to NAG???!! I mean, I catch your balls and I wanted to clarify the doubts. these adult will say" LISTEN, LISTEN FIRST, IF NOT YOU WILL MADE MISTAKES"( though after they are done with their speech, I will forget what I wanted to ask-.- And if I insist to speak out first, they will NAG about this: "NOWADAYS, WHY ARE YOUNGSTERS( ESP THE YOUNGEST/ ONLY CHILD IN THE FAMILY AND MIDDLE CHILD) ARE SO ________. WANT MEANS WANT??! But on my first day of work, you said whatever you don't know shoot out and ask. <- that's what empress dowager said( my admin manager- my 'head') told me. -______________________________________________-

Whatever-.- I want to earned good bucks:) Just don't care. Anyway, I'm only gonna see you for another 19 days and you are down with maternity leave. BYEBYE!:):)
(sounds so mean:PP)

Oh well, 3488 ( PM taught me this on news coverage, hahax!) I have to go now.

2009-12-01T18:58:00.002+08:00

Fann has recovered:) Well, it's a good thing to hear that as a fan:)

Hello, This is huiyi speaking, may I know you are? One moment please, line 4 for reader:P
That is my repeated lines whenever a call comes in. Independant today:( Typed GRN ( Goods receiving notes) in the afternoon. I couldn't played with chemicals today as Uncle Ariffin and Uncle Lee is not in the factory:( Opps, there's a thick stack of chem lab reports awaiting for me to do first thing in the morning today:(:(:(:(

Bye! Bathing time:)
Random.

2009-11-30T22:19:00.002+08:00

Anyway, it's pay day today:) Coincidentally, lots of companies cleared there accounts, leaving me with lots of surprises while opening letters:) Seriously, I hate fax machines, whenever it rang, jobs ;x. LOL!

Ok whatever, home sweet home, granny's starting to tell her 'night tales' now, OMG! I think I'd better turned in early now to avoid listening her 'tales'.

Bye:) Ion trip this sat, looking forward to it:) Glad that Fann wong is well:) woohoo:)

2009-11-28T23:08:00.002+08:00

Went over to mdm wang fang's house today for house warming. Slack over there, actually, there's nothing much to post about today. This is because I have been busy painting my room to pinkish pink:):):):). However, while waiting for bus to arrive at bus interchange, I almost fainted in the afternoon! All I saw was black seas aheaad of me and I couldn't hear anything, all I saw was black stars twirling~~ making me sleepy and tiring. It lasted for 10mins. In addition, I experienced m____ cramps, which made the day worst. Took panadols and slept all the way till 4.30pm in the afternoon. Continued with painting and tada! It's almost 3/4 done:)

Happy birthday to pearl and ms ong lixiang:)

2009-11-26T20:26:00.003+08:00

Prom night was awesome:) Working as temporary clerk @ Protek was awesome too:) I HEART OFFICE POLITICS:) gossips:o

Woke up late in the morning as I slept at 1am yesterday night:( Super drowsy and moody in the morning. Luckily, my first job was to stick stickers onto Gistri bottles:) A cup of coffee woke me up at around 10am:) I saw many many cheque today coming from various bank in Singapore (LOL, abit kua zhang:P)

Prom, awesome. However, the program like abit sian, well that's how I feel. FOOD WAS THUMBS UPPPP!!!!!!!!! HEHHEHH! Sometimes, it's good to become a vegetarian. At least, the food you ate is different from others:P It was rather, to me, a photo taking session as I have freakinn' 100 pictures and 3 videos waiting to be posted (faint**)

I love the taxi ~~uncle~~(brother) who send us to Carlton hotel. As we have a common television for everyone ( tom and jerry show, nice:D ) And I think, by paying 5.40 bucks, is worth it, right? The 13 of us????

Well, just a short update for the past two days. Shall stop here and continue tagging people photos:)

PROM PHOTOS!!!!!!!

2009-11-24T20:39:00.002+08:00

Prom's tmr! Looking forward to it?! NO! Because I saw my hard earned money flew away in the afternoon:( I need cash, my dear.

2009-11-23T22:35:00.002+08:00

Gosh! Get well soon my idol, GET WELL SOONNNN!!! So sad sad sad sad sad:( after hearing the news from the fan club. Get well soon alright?

Telemarketer job was not too badfor the day as I have been slacking most of the time:P Shanie and I have submit our termination letters to boss today. Looking forward to the admin job on thursday:)

Lastly, I have tried my contact lens today. Not bad afterall, however, my eyes felt little tinkle pain on my 4th hours wearing it. I guess it's still adapting?o.o

So not looking forward to prom(thought I have my wardrobe done) except for hairstyling:(
Let's pray that I will not find a twin on wednesday night:( Hmm, finally an outing tomorrow, bye!

2009-11-19T18:07:00.003+08:00

Booo!!! I have my contact lens ready shall I try it later? Out with xiao fen and xuelin earlier. And enfrapro milk for baby cousin is so expensive.... Been sending out resume for the whole afternoon, let's hope one of the company reply me. (**pray**) I really wanted to joined shanie and cliche to ECP tomorrow, but mum doesn't allow&^&(R%&*% (*roll eyes*). Whatever. Right I'm being so random now bye. LOL

2009-11-17T20:11:00.002+08:00

Helloo! Time to blog!
Been staying over at my aunt's house for the past two days.
I don't like the neighbor staying @ opposite my aunt's house. Eeek, so kaypoh! Poor rowenda(maid) she was scolded in the morning:( just because the maid doesn't want to open the gate for her-.- LOL! Please, you are not her employer nor her employer's next of kin. I have ordered her not to open any gates to strangers. The neighbor actually retaliate threatened her by saying she would complaint to her boss-.-ROFL! By the way, who the hell is she to order her here and there? F***
So kay poh!
(shoo~)

Next, sheridin texted me this morning, she asked me whether I'm going to Red camp. %&*(#&*^&%&#^$ KNS! The organiser did not even send me a letter but email notification! DAMM! The frustrating point was that I have actually emailed to the organiser when would I received the letter 2 weeks ago, and they didn't reply! &%)(*#(%*^&*

(shoo)
On a positive side, 1 appointment made today! YEAH!!!!!! hahahahahahaha!!!!And completed 2 contact list^^ Lastly, Fann blogged:) That really made my day:) Hmm, I guess I shall stop her, fiona is calling me:) Bye!

2009-11-15T23:09:00.002+08:00

Work from 16th to 18th nov.
Stay over @cousin's house from 15th to 22th nov.
Shopping trip on thurs?
outing on friday?

Anyway, HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO BELLE AND JOYCELYN,(16/11/09)
45 MORE MINS:):)

2009-11-13T20:32:00.002+08:00

WEEE!!! F-R-E-E-D-O-M!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAHA THE DAY IM LOOKING FORWARD TO FINALLY ARRIVED:):)
REALLY ENJOYED MY DAY VERY MUCH.
WENT SHOPPING WITH THE GIRLS RIGHT AFTER THE PAPER AT VIVO.
FROM TOPSHOP->F21->DIASO->NEWURBAN MALE->GIANT-> PET SHOP-> FOOD REPUBLIC-> PULL BEAR?-> BODY SHOP->PLAYGROUND:):)
HAPPY:):)

DID I MENTION THAT I HAVE FOUND A JOB? YAY! HAHA! STEADY!!!!!! GOOD PAY+ FLEXIBLE HOURS:) O, LAST BUT NOT LEAST, THANKS SERENA, BELLE, VANESSA, XIAOFEN AND XUELIN FOR SPENDING YOUR DAY WITH ME:):)

I'M REALLY TIRED NOW, SHALL UPLOAD THE PHOTOS TAKEN DURING THE TRIP ON FACEBOOK TMR:)

2009-10-09T18:03:00.002+08:00

On HIATUS.

Catch me back after O level(13/11/09)
Exactly, 17 days till Os!!!!!! WAAAAAA

2009-10-01T21:48:00.003+08:00

FAREWELL ASSEMBLY TMR.
The day has finally arrived ever since I first step into westwood in sec 1.
Definitely will missed my dear friends, and beloved teachers.
Suddenly, I really don't feel like leaving.... because I missed my friends:(:(
Thank you my friends in 1Glorious06, 2Gutsy07, 3Genial08 and 4Gobbledygook09.
Thanks for those 'dramatic events' that brightens up my life in westwood, be it good or bad.
And my dear 'going-to-school-everyday-without-fail-partner' Joyce Tan, who never fails to accompany me to school every morning:)
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I have been staying in school and study till 8pm for the past 2 days. Well,quite productive as this program refrains me from watching too much tv:) Homed and Curretly I'm rushing graduation cards now, BYE ppl. ps, I will bring enough tissue with me tomorrow.

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY:)

2009-09-27T16:37:00.003+08:00

Perhaps life is a little annoying- Ups and downs.
If I have a brain like you, that will be great.
If I am a time machine, I can then summon the minute hand to stop ticking.
If I put in more effort, more As in the result slips.
If I my granddad is mr chor, my physics will not get F9, at least c6.
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No more IF.... 30 days to Olevel.
don't work hard now, poly also don't want you arh! HUIYI WAKE UP!!!!
(look infornt, can u see ITE waving its hands at you??)

2009-09-20T21:20:00.003+08:00

Mooncake making was sort of fun. It's my first time making a 'homemake' organic mooncake during sunday classes. OMFG! those sec 1 are really brats. Can you belive? they atucally acted 'lian' although they are such'tiny' and freak! their attitude sucks! Damm no manners towards the teacher.( i'm not saying I am a mannered child, but, seriously, what's wrong with them? I think they have wasted their time since they were yound to recite those 'confusious theroy'( I don't know what to describe- it's supposed to inculcate good morals to these young kids, for eg, good manners when speaking to their seniors etcetc.) And back to topic, i really pity their parents to spent so much of their valuable time in their children.( somemore, their parents were those 'famous and highly intelligence?' lot in the society.
LOL! FUCK?

Homed with ailin for she wanted to visit weijie at pioneer area LOL?! but however, a good catch up of our daily life uhuh! haha, some of her friends are actually the senior i have known them personally in ww. LOL!
ok cut the crap. Boonlay intercharge was full of foreigner workers and it'd freaky squeey to get out of theat control station. Too bad I couldn't actually snap a picture of the real situation:P Backed and continued watching 1 litre of tear. very touching and immediately after which, I proceed on with doing my maths revision.

Self achievement- completed catholic high's paper1 and 2, bartley sec paper2:):) **pat back**
Tomorrow 'm gonna start on amaths as well as chem- finished up the papers given by mrs thio and lastly if I got time- to study ss. venice! HOT TOPIC!!!:)

9 more days to Fann Wong and christopher leee getting married!!! WOOHOO! ^^
I'm very excited for tmr as they will be on cover on 8days and I weekly- Bridal photoshoot from Maldives lehh!!!! HOW? which magazine should I buy??? If can I wanted to buy both:(

2009-09-18T22:19:00.002+08:00

Thumbs up on the trip to Orchard Ion- Ice cream buffet:):):)
Pictures are uploaded on facebook, do check it out:) I found my new buffet khakis:) and we can really indulge in icecream and food:)
P.S. Belle ate 10 scoop of ice-cream.
P.S. Xuelin ate 7 scoop of icecream(including D24 durian flavor!!!)
P.S I ate 6 scoop of icream- mostly are gelanto!
P.S both xuelin and belle can really eat and don't get fat:(:( **ENVIOUS****
P.S Orchard ION is really huge and cold and wow! branded
P.S I owned xuelin 5bucks and needs to give 19 dollar to her next month to save upp.
P.S I saw leeminho(gyu jun pyo)'s ambassador product- etude house at ion underpass.
P.S Each of us was given an O2 mask as freebies when we visits the shop:)
P.S I want to purchase the nail polisher at etude house.
P.S I'm desperately waiting for Os to end so that my shopping trippp can start.....
P.S I didn't visit Isetan today to koup free samples as xuelin needs to be home early today<--- aunty luvy!!hahaha!!!
P.S I want to slepp soon.
P.S HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY, SHINYI[Christine]:))

Overall, trip to town was greatttt:)

2009-09-17T19:32:00.002+08:00

Hoo hoo hoo! prelims are over:) I think physics mcq are total crap, I finished my paper in 30 minutes time without revision. (throw erasers:P) time to get serious. Os coming, and I don't want history to happen again:( Giving myself 2 day break and start revision again on sunday:) Well, Xuelin came to my house in the afternoon. We watched mo-nu 18. NICE SHOW:):) I LIKE jingjing's character:) There's fann variety show later, for now, I will take my dinner now. ciao

2009-09-11T14:47:00.003+08:00

I've just realized that today is the 11th of September. The day where terrorist attacked US world trade center on 2001. Well, 8 years have passed.
Hello, to my friend. How are you doing? How was your life for the past 4 years? I felt great to catch up with you last night. Though it's a casual chat. And, you looked really different- no matter in appearance or the way you voiced out your opinion. Indeed a mature young man. Haha! Do continue to keep in touch okay? :)
It's Friday. Well I'm left with 45 days to O lvl. (shit!) I named you hero if you can stop the clock from clicking or to buy me your 15 hours of duration. ( Which is impossible)
I have always wanted to become a kite. Because kite can fly to the blue sky and they can fly to any where they want if their owner were mean to them. Well, I guess my freedom is coming? and I am graduating soon? it sounds old~. I can't bear to leave my classmates who have spent 4 years with me (especially the ones I am closed with and my sec2 girls:( )
TIME, is what I named the invisible killer which separate people....

2009-09-08T20:02:00.002+08:00

1. Break are not meant to be wasted. Perhaps, I've wasted them.
2. Filming of graduation video ytd does not turned out to be what I have actually expected.
3. Moody-. Wasted 3hrs stoning in the canteen and crapping with pearl and jazlyn.
4. Rushed home for I have a tuition at 7.30pm.
5. I stay up late (almost everyday) to practice maths.
6. I couldn't solve this Amaths questions- sin2x=sin(x-4) in rad mode for 07. I have not started chem and humanities revision yet(thought I have planned what to study every single day-- procrastination)
8. I sensed that miss nithiya was really pissed off ytd.
9. Late morning is my routine now.
10. Seriously, I really need a new blogskins.
11. Shutting doen my system in another 5mins- mum's nagging again:(
12. How I wished I can experienced the life every single person is doing in the world.

13. Bye!

2009-09-06T12:56:00.001+08:00

I want to change my blogskin! Getting sick of it-.-

2009-08-22T19:46:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary,

Right now, I knew that I can make any changes to my decision.

Regret, REGRET, REGRET. A big stone smashed onto my brain on Wednesday, 11.24pm. My brain, confidence immediately shattered into pieces on the hard ground. These few days, I have been thinking on the question" WHY ME? WHY? WHAT'S WRONG? WHY? WHY?WHY?" I considered retake as a direct option after the results are out, but reconsider due to heavy content- based subject I am taking. If I dropped phyics last year, I will retake. If I am not in class 4G, I will retake. If I have a brain just like you, I will retake. I really tried my best, but WHY can't I make it? WHY? JUST WHAT'S WRONG WITH IT?

16 years of learning, 16 years of despair and sad. Mum told me it's okay, it's your fate. Must I kneel down toward fate? Am I FATED TO BE CLOCKED INTO A B-GRADER STUDENT? I aspire to become the best. Whenever I dream, I dreamt of becoming the best. Handing in 100% effort+punctual work to teachers. Whenever I failed a exam, I do cry but I told myself,"it's okay, practice harder the next time, try again...."

Until today, I've just realised that for the past 16 years, I have been deceiving myself. I chose to live in "the-world-full-of-lies-situations" and not to faced up to reality that I have FAILED terribly, TERRIBLY. What's the point of studying? Right now? Prelims are coming. I have already predicted the result. Olevels are coming, I know I will only "barely--make-it". WHY?" Just like others, I studied for the test/paper hard. At the end of the day, results are always the same. Sometimes I do wonder, "is my brain that stupid?" or "I scored a lower IQ than other"

Let's faced it, others doesn't have to study so hard but still achieved distinction, however, no matter how much I worked, I've only achieved 75% of their result. I do believe in Karma, that's why I devote my time over my schoolwork.

Crying over spill milk cannot help to improve the situation. I have chose to move on from where my setbacks are. I wished that I have not make a wrong decision of not retaking it. I am worried for my future. Next year, I'm afraid that I could not proceed with my next stage of education. People out there look down on me because I am just AVERAGE student.

Thank you mrs vergis, teachers and friends who accompanied me during my hard times. I chose to accept the reality. I chose to believe in fate. I chose to believe in myself that I am just a B grader. I chose not to accept the fact that I cannot outdo people. I want to be the shinning star in the universe. I want to change the way I am living in.

CAN I? Will I not regret again? Barely less than 8 weeks left. I don't want to be despair upon collecting the result next year. I don't want to see words full on disappointment written on my dear teachers, myself and mum. Right now, I do not know where I will be standing 10 years down the road. Roadsweeper? CEO? Beggar? Teacher? I don't know. I feel that my ambition is distance away from me. The future infront of me is gloomy. I have no idea which direction should I heed upon.

I prayed for her to get well soon. Seeing her suffer, reminds me of kor 8 years ago. Your children needs you, Please get well. Please.

Signing off now, dear diary. Lunch with andrea and xuelin @ banquet today was fulfilling as they kept me away on my thoughts. Goodbye and right now, I will shift my focus to chemistry questions. Hold on to the stars, no matter it's dim or bright- This is the last time I will bring myself to believe. Believing that I can make it.

2009-08-16T20:01:00.004+08:00

study manic since yesterday. Managed to complete organic chem notes:) I am seriously deaddeaddead for amaths mock exam. Huishi is really funny during paper 2. LOL. Homed after the test. For today, I have revised 4 chapters on organic chemistry:) I wish/hope that no more test for the upcoming week. I shall stay back till 5.30pm everyday to study in the library for prelim. But I think I will meet miss nithiya to have my english oral practice:( alright bye. (P.S hate _mummy___ busybody- interfering my private life when I surf the web. )&*#)W&$%)*$JKFrglkrgoehglndphjh

i am seriously damm boring now:(

2009-08-10T19:06:00.005+08:00

R.I.P-> homeworkssss....
So, while people are sining"count on me singapore.....", I'm infont of my desk, singing"count on me homeworks!" well, that's what my dad says. People said the pledge at 8.33pm and I am saying my plegde"TO COMPLETE MY WORK BY HOOK OR BY CROOK!" :Z
Been mugging for amaths for the entire day today. Totally forgotten my chemistry-.- shitz! let me show u fiona and her sis:)

fiona's sis

fiona, credits huiling:)

woots:) alright, bye i need to rush for my emaths tuition now, bye:)

2009-08-08T22:51:00.002+08:00

Ohello, I have yet to do something productive today. I have only managed to complete ematsh paper 1. Mrs chow's lesson was fine, we were late! LOL! but the paper we done was quite manageable. Lunch at jp with fuhong vanessa nad junwei, walk around jp and home. I need to turn in early for tomorrow I am visiting fiona at grandma house! YIPEE!
Good bye. (P.s. He is damm good! ANTHONY, jiayou lurhhh:):)

Not forgetting aijia.

I am going to search for the lyrics on 《你是我的眼睛》.
Happy birthday to Yijun, and Justin:)
Happy birthday singapore? 1hr and 1 mins left.

Till then.

2009-08-07T22:16:00.001+08:00

I am busy doing my homework now, I shall blog tomorrow after mrs chow's chem remedial.
Good night(:

2009-08-02T20:08:00.002+08:00

Oh!It's monday agin:(:( Hello! testsss, Hello! homeworks, Hello my tables and chairs:) Hmm, I am pround of myself for I revised 6 chapters today, I will do a note for these chapter as a recap the coming weekends(PS, I need to push them all ato weekends as I am really really really very busy...)
Happy advaced birthday to andy
Good bye comp, goodbye plurk, goodbye facebook.Do miss me okay:)I will come again on 7th august. I promise.

2009-08-01T19:48:00.002+08:00

I guess I need to find miss nithiya to sort out my timetable. Frankly speaking, the timetable i have planned didn't work well for me. Oh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERIDIN AND FIONA! Freakky friday was cool..., Bye am off for my revision for 3 topics on chem.

2009-07-31T20:03:00.002+08:00

Facebook is killing me, OMyGosh! the alignment is totally out of place...
Happy advanced birthday to Sheridin and Fiona who turns 16 and 2 respectively tomorrow:)
I shall wait for the video being uploaded. Meanwhile, i really really getting sick of amaths. Test, test and test. For the upcoming week, I have test everyday. Shag, how to do revision sia?!!
I have master a bit of "tai-ti" this week, and I won 2 games super happy:):)
SS workshop is dry today for the first part, the trainer was late. VERY LATE. Mdm rozi wrote sarcastic remark on the whiteboard, shall get the picture from huishi:) The suprise was a success, I must say and I bet sheridin do enjoy it right? ( force you to say yes haha!)
Hmmm, excatly 4 more weeks to prelims, Really really needs to study.However, the more I revise, the more I get lesser marks for my topical test. SHAG! I really wish to have a genius brain for my brain is super dumb.
Bye! I am going to have my dinner now:)

2009-07-26T22:27:00.000+08:00

O hello. Weekends flew away so fast:( nevertheless, I think I have a good break. I revised chem and maths today, so happy. And And Nicole is cute:) Alright, bye, I have nothing to blog about.